Let me be illusory!

But now when I share about the experience, it would turn out to be an absolute insanity. But that’s how it was; fresh and lively.

I had the indistinct vision and was unable to concentrate on something. I had no idea where I was, I was steadily walking down the alleys and that’s the only conscious act I remember.  What was “self” in my pre-conceived mind was just everywhere. The very passage I was walking on, the air that I was breathing, the atmosphere around me – everything had just become “self.” For the very first time in my life, I had an experience of being a part of this Cosmos. And for the first time in my life, I got to experience the sharing of my perpetual energy with the universe.

Illusory Experience

Each and every spine of my body was jam-packed with a new yet unutterable intensity of bliss. I had no word for this, I did not know what to say; I did not know what was happening with me. The experience was completely unique and fresh one. I asked myself, “What’s going on with me?” The answer would be “wait and see”.

I thought this is all what the mind could answer in case of such a mystery.

I was only certain that what was happening was entirely madness, so I wanted to live moment-to-moment.

When I spoke, I listened with captivated attention. When I joked I exploded into laughter; when I questioned, I pondered. When I knocked down the predetermined philosophies and prejudices, I remained empty.

More significantly, I closed my eyes and I emerged into the silence. The silence was roaring deep down my being and struck at the core. The unspoken voice was warmly welcoming the silence.

Soaked in a unique wisdom of liberty within, I sensed a new beginning, a new beginning to questioning, a new beginning to laughter, a new beginning to my approaches and a new beginning to my life as a whole.

A new beginning to Experience!!!

Silence is the eternal freedom! Silence is the eternal freedom! I heard the repetition again and again.

I looked my watch and realized that it was just a matter of few minutes. Such precious moments within few minutes and the most valuable time of my life.

Then on, every moment became a celebration. Every judgment started being an observation. The previous understanding of life became a practical one. Life became much easier, happier and simpler than before.

Then on, I felt that I was firmly allied and bonded with the spiritual thread.

About the author

I come from the land of Gurkhas; the brave soldiers who fought tirelessly and didn’t let any countries rule Nepal. Because of those Gorkhalis, the Nepalese are proud to call “Nepal has always been an independent nation so far.” Nepalese Flag is the world’s only non-quadrilateral national flag; red color symbolizing the bravery and blue symbolizes peace and harmony. What a proud thing. Also, Nepal was the Hindu Kingdom in the past and now a secular state welcoming people from all the religions. Nepal is a country of living heritages and Kathmandu a city of temples. All in all, Nepal is a country with Unity in Diversity. Thank you for reading the boring random shits. These things don’t relate to me in any way. And those are not the things that describe me. If I introduce myself with the common voices of any nationality, group or community, it’s nothing but sheer stupidity. A part of it can be a shared introduction but not fully. So who am I? I don’t know who I am. It’s been years of SEARCH but nothing has been excavated yet. And also, I am not the right person to describe who I am. It's you who know me and whatever I say about me makes no sense. You tell me who I am ;)
6 Responses
  1. Jyotsna Malla

    Yeah! The most ridiculous and tough part to know ourself. It’s hard but easier within us 🙂 keep on writing for yourself 🙂

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